This time in life i finally have found the strength to revive myself, from the darkness that have enveloped me into believing what was not true............
But it was too late..... just too late....

I'm juts a shadow of the past, a living spirit in this dream world. I cannot comprehend what had been happening to me all this time. It was as if i was sucked up in a vacuum, a never ending choke hold by fate. I was lost, i was almost dead, but then i saw that faint light which was like a beacon of hope. little by little i went towards it and now i am finally free.

Define Happiness: can it be limited to smiles? for smiles can be faked.....
Can it be limited to joy? for joy lasts for only moments at a time......
Can it be limited to laughter? For that too turns into sobs, into tears of sadness....
Can it be limited to excitement? Which then turns into dread.......
Can it be limited to the tingling sensations on a beautiful day when the breeze tickles you and you can smell the rain, feel it splash on your skin, the cool droplets, the satisfying view, But then, this too can then be turned into a total chaotic scene of destruction..... All this.... And then......
True Happiness is when you find yourself, that i believe cannot be taken away from you...........
Although....
Death does that , but then, i believe you just get closer to yourself.

Love can never be measured........The amount of love you give or receive can never be weighted........
You cannot take out ones heart to see how much love it has, never can u even compare a persons love with another......
Everyone has their own way of conveying or showing how much they love you.....
and then, some show it, while others don't..... some show it a bit.. juts too well....forgetting the realities of life....while some just cant show it... Their feelings restricted...their thoughts disrupted

Im trying to sleep...... The night is beautiful, its cool and breezy unlike most summer nights.......
Sleep just requested permission to envelope me: take me in.... swing me away... far away...in dreamland.....make me dream of strawberry fields and blueberry trees....into the wilderness.... take me in... churn me up.....hurl me up..... throw me down......take me in for a roller coaster ride....for trashed id love to be....sway away in the night...slip in the shadows.........pray i stay.....pray i may... sleep i may... sleep i must